Strategy, Plan, Beauty, Art

No longer any clue as to up from down and perhaps that is ok

Maybe I am not meant to have such a tight grip on the way that things ‘ought to be.’

I used to believe certain things about my life, about myself, about the way that my heart looks and I used to swallow the ugly things that you would say

I used to identify my worth as though it were up to you and your opinion changed from left to right, from yes to no, oh so fleetingly

I would like to believe that I have come so far, that I am a warrior and that I have pulled myself out of despair and destitution by my bootstraps

But in reality I have been saved by grace and by a Savior

I am humbled and tearful as I understand in a new way that my heart would still be marred and devastated with holes and gaps

If not for YOU I would be completely dependent on my exterior

Passionately I advocate for those who are in danger of, or may have already gone through what I went through

Wonder if I am running in circles against the height and breadth of what is not just an issue but a vast system and network of darkness

I can’t fix it and what is it that I am to do?

Is there peace to be found where there is endless potential to be restless?

YOU oh Lord see the heart of every child, girl, boy, woman, and man who is part of this broken system

YOU know the pain that sears

YOU are the King of wisdom

And with YOUR gentle hand you wipe away the unseen tears

I beg of you to see what we can’t see and have grace on our paltry efforts

Have mercy on YOUR children whom YOU love

This journey is long and the road is hard and sometimes it just really hurts

May we be both the serpent and the dove?

Passion that burns in the hearts of those who love YOU- let it burn with YOUR purpose and YOUR plan

Let us be YOUR hands and feet and eyes and heart

We know that YOU are both spirit and man

And Lord – praise you. You are strategy and plan the same way that you are beauty and art.