How do I make peace with the next steps when I thrive in the present day?
Perhaps the wheel turns too quickly and my fear overtakes logic
May I find some peace when I get on my face and pray?
Is there any space to be wishy washy, leery or nostalgic?
Missions aftermath burns me with a passion that will never cease
Today fills me with a joy that burns so bright
When aftermath turns into present is there some sort of release?
Or is there just more burning, more yearning, more purporse- more light?
Perhaps they are one and the same
If today and tomorrow and yesterday belong to God can I let go of one more piece?
Can I let go of knowing? Of my heart? My well being? Of protecting myself? Competing for needs? Release the foray?
Will the struggle end and I let go of my lease?
You ask me, Abba, to stand on truth.
To be honest and forthright and believe you have my best
You painstakingly unclench my fist and tell me to walk away from my youth
That you have a plan for the rest
I will never know lest I jump off the cliff
Dive away from what was
Take what is flexible from what used to be stiff
Because you are God and not just because
Today my heart breaks to grieve what was
So necessary to embrace what is and what may be
Its so amazing to see what God does
Every day I walk forward and I am free
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