WONDERING

Wondering if You can see the same stars that I can see

Wondering what You see when You pierce my soul

Uncertain if there is reality between You and me

Wondering if I even noticed when I became whole

You took my heart in Your hands and Your breathed on it and made it Your own

I can’t believe that I am here from where I began

I stand in awe at the beauty of Your throne

I trade my life for the miracle of Your plan

Wondering at the way that You treasure me and hold me in such high regard

I long to see myself in Your esteem

I have such a story to tell but I wonder if I am a bard

Sometimes I wonder if Your grace is a dream

Wondering, wondering, wondering – You are so far beyond my comprehension

So big beyond my eyes and so complex beyond my fumbling words

You took my life and led me in a new direction

Sometimes I wonder if I am crazy and You are absurd

Wondering what my life means outside my definitions and resting in only Your amorphous paradigm

Forging a path for my life that means only following the lamp and not my intuition

Throwing out the old to make room for new wine

May I always be prepared to accept your peace and restoration.